i don't really like to talk about my family issues. but sometimes, u just need to spill out your feelings, i guess. and this place seems like a good spot to rant your heart out.

so, yeah. 

i hope that one day, i found someone that will love only me. and i hope that, i can have a family that i've been dreaming of since i was a child. living happily without having the fear of sharing the person that you love wholeheartedly with someone else. living life without being scared of your children's future. living freely without having the thoughts of you being unworthy. 

i just want a guy that will love me and only me. i just want my future kids to have their dad all by themselves, without having to share it with anyone else. i don't want my future kids to have the life that i'm currently living. i don't want them to live in a world where they have other siblings instead of their own and why their dad is having another woman besides their mum. i don't want that.

all i want is to be happy, really. i want my future kids to be happy.

so please, let me have someone that will love me and only me. i'm tired of sharing. and i'm tired of being hurt. 

i just want to be happy. 

Flight Log : Arrival

**this was supposed to be posted long time ago but i forgot but also, its a pity la utk tak post kan so yeah post je la ahahahahahahah kbye

GOT7 IS BACK! I REPEAT GOT7 IS FREAKIN BACK!!!!!!

okay, so they made their comeback yesterday (13/03/2017) with Flight Log: Arrival; epilogue for the Flight Log Trilogy. i think, the whole fandom was hyped up with this comeback and surprisingly, they have been breaking their personal records with this album. like when the album was released, 20k have been sold in the first hour like weh!!! 20k isnt a small amount. and the preorders alone reached 220k. LEGENDS ONLY.

as for the mv and the title song, personally for me, Never Ever is the best title ever next to Fly. i was so in love with Fly, seriously but Never Ever has succeed in capturing my heart. so basically for flight log trilogy; Never Ever >> Fly >>>> Hard Carry.

Hard Carry was dope like seriously and the choreo was a MASTERPIECE, but for me, that song is not the one that u want to listen to 24/7. Never Ever is better.

here's the link to Never Ever MV. u guys should check it out. help us increase their view! hehe

and oh, all of them, LOOK HANDSOME CRAZY IN THE MV NO JOKE. okay, there's no such thing as visual hole in Got7 but u can see that they're shining in the mv! it's like their visual is upgraded to level 9999999999. Mark (read: bae) looks dashing in suit sitting against that sick car, Jinyoung being the disney prince, Jaebum chic as always, Jackson in turtle neck smashing thru the walls... *dies*, Youngjae in all white HE LOOKS LIKE AN ANGEL, Bambam got me shookt with his white hair and Yugyeom in choker... and him singing the opening of the song... and his black hair... yeah.... in conclusion, they're handsome af.

so next, about their whole new discography- consist of 8 new songs with Never Ever as it title song. i'll give my impression for all of the songs so bear with me okay HAHAHAHAHA

1) Never Ever:

• as i said, THE BEST TITLE TRACK EVER. it has that tropic kinda sound? idk i'm not good in describing song's genre. but yeah, i like it. gyeom's opening, amerithaikong's rap, jinyoung highnotes (him singing 'baby u belong to me' got me falling to my feet) and 2jae's vocal in the chorus- overall their vocals are very on point in this song. they really improved a lot u know it makes me feel like crying ;; my precious boys ;;;;;

2) Shopping Mall:

• yeah i know the title's funny but u need to hear the song!!! it's so good tho!!! this song will be the next skyway for me (skyway is my second fav in fl: turbulence next to my home) and did i mentioned mark and jaebum's part??? oh god.......... markbum literally made me cried, especially mark's 'oh girl u make my heart beat, u're my beauty i'm ur beast' like STAPHHHH MORKKKKKKKK U'RE TORTURING MEHHHHHHH 

3) Paradise:

• i thought this song would be the title song haha bcus before the tracklist release, fans have been speculating that the title would be Paradise, based on the spoilers the boys gave but it's not. anyways the song is also good. it's quite different from what jinyoung had wrote in the previous two albums (Can't and Mayday) but still it's jinyoung's. jinyoung = masterpiece so paradise = masterpiece.

4) Sign:

• for me, sign is prove it 2.0- IT'S SEXY AF. shoutout to youngjae for writing this song! i like r&b songs so sign got me right in the feeeeeeeeeelsssssss. also, mork's 'ur eyes are so deep, beautiful, what i need' left me breathless like DUDE WILL U STAPH U ALREADY GOT MY HEART SINCE 2015 SO STAPH he's really getting after me this comeback hahahaha.

5) Go Higher:

• if u're looking for a song u want to blast out loud in ur room and bang ur head till u're dizzy af, then this is it. it has the similar feel as 2pm's Go Crazy but there's some part here and there that's still different. both songs are good tho. everyone in this song sounds fantastic. i can imagine them singing live in my head. most probably they will go wild if they're performing this at their upcoming concert. what is got7 anyway without the word wild heh. 

6) Q:

• aww this song is cute. it gives u the vibe of being in a cafe sipping ur latte, looking across the room, waiting for the one to come to u. and it seriously sounds sooooo like jaebum HAHAHA AND MORK SINGS WEH! HE IS FREAKIN SINGING IN Q!!!!!! who says mork can't sing??? in ur face haters!!!!!

7) Don't Care:

• this song has gyeom's vibe (he composed it so duh) hm not my cup of tea but still, it's goooooodddddd

8) OUT:

• i laughed really hard when i saw this one in the title tracklist like weh seriously OUT?? are got7 using their inside jokes as a song?? it's catchy and i like jaebum's rap in this song and oh oh!! JACKS AND MORK'S MONOLOGUE!!! /dies/

so yeah, i think that is all.. for now... dont forget to stream the mv!! help us increase the views and buy their cd!! ahahahaha k jk (but seriously if u can afford, go and buy now)

as a closing, here, have a mork gif doing his 'uri maengsehaebolkka let’s try it
maeume gyeyageul hae let’s sign it' part bye!! 

xoxo

11:11 Jung Joonhyung

i actually have studying to do since my midterm exams start tmrw but since i'm lazy and don't have any spirits to remember all the name of drugs, so here i am. 

this time, i'm gonna rant about jung joonhyung. 

so, who's this joonhyung guy? he's the main male lead in a drama titled 'weightlifting fairy kim bokjoo'. if u haven't watched the drama, then u really should, now, pronto! okay, joke. the drama, basically, for me, have all the goals that u ever wanted in ur life- relationship goals, family goals, friendship goals, life goals, etc. the storyline itself is beautiful and all the casts certainly brings all the character into life. i give 10/10 for this drama, seriously. 

okay, back to jung joonhyung. 

u see, that charming guy- he's joonhyung @ his real name, nam joohyuk (he's such a bae). next to him is the one and only, kim bokjoo! @ lee sungkyung (she so pretty i cry TT)

both of them are #RELATIONSHIPGOALS i swear.

joonhyung is a childhood friend of bokjoo. they met again when they're in college, bokjoo in the weightlifting department and joonhyung himself in the swimming department. they bicker nonstop when they first met again and joonhyung calling bokjoo 'ddung' is the cutest thing ever, no joke. what i like about joonhyung is that, he accepts bokjoo for who she is- no matter how ugly, how clumsy, how rough she is, he still likes her. and her personality makes him fall in love with her.

and both of them are very supportive towards each other. they way joonhyung let bokjoo leave him for her olympic training (eventho he knows long distance relationship sucks) makes me realize that, yes, having someone that understands what is ur dreams and helps u to achieve ur ambitions is the best thing u could ever wish for. not all people can handle the distance, yknow. and how joonhyung is always there for her, thru thicks and thins touched me, most of the time. also, he's cute and clingy and over-protective and cute.

and bokjoo also, is always there for him.

their relationship is cute and healthy, at the same time. u don't see this kind of relationship in every kdrama, okay. and i'm not the type that gets to attached to a kdrama, heck i dont really watch them, but wlfkbj is an exception. (most of my friends were crazy over goblin- until now- but nah, i prefer wlfkbj more, and i will never get over this drama, NEVER) #bokjoo4lyfe

so, yeah i think that's all, for now.

in conclusion, having someone like jung joonhyung in my life and a relationship like bokjoohyung are my 11:11.

i'm gonna continue filling my head with drugs, its mechanism of actions and God knows whatever else. till next time.

New Look.

i've neglected this blog way too long thus, 

i decide to give it some new looks. 

tadaaaaaaaaaa.

okay, back to studying pharmacolgy.

i have exams next week.

wish me luck.

i think the % of heartlessness in me has increased 1% daily. 

i don't think it's good but having constant mental breakdown on how to fix back your broken heart wasn't good either.

so i think i'll just pass on having feelings and go on with being heartless.

at least, my life will be a smooth ride and not go all topsy-turvy, right?